Le Ordinaire Jedi

2008-11-30T11:53:00.002+08:00

while time really flies man. it has since been more than 1 more month since i last updated my blog. Guess i'm just too lazy to do anything about it bah haha. Just finished my exams a few days ago and ya my first semester is officially over. Hope that i can do well man although i seem to think i had screwed up for all of my tests. gotta admit that sometimes my mind just wasn't in that mugging mode when i was studying during that time and just wished that my prayers come through. After that hectic first semester then is now followed my a month's break. Still haven really thought of how i'm gonna spend my time; to be a free-loader at slack at home?(thats boring), get some temp job(a bit lazy and fingers crossed) or start dancing again? Speaking of which, i went to dance fuzion's lesson to see how it was like a day after my last dreaded paper-discovery course(they should seriously consider changing the name of the module and not to mislead ppl that this is a easy module to take) It was not too bad but just that i can't seem to keep up with some of the steps. Haiz think my bones are becoming stiff liao haha. Guess in my heart, i really like to dance bah. Still thinking in addition to this, whether i'm going to learn hip hop from outside.....

Well till more thinking and May the force be with you:)

21

2008-09-21T13:48:00.005+08:00

Time really flies and now I am 21. Come to think of it, I'm officially an adult and its actually quite scary when i think of it; with more responsibilities, having to think in a more adult way(hghhhhhh kinda hate it) and of course older now.

Had a pre 21st birthday celebration a few days back. Well i was kindda touched by what all of them did; meeting up with Citibank temps at last(it was only the 1st time we had an outing since i quited abt 5-6 months back - like god damn long la and i suspect tjat no one really had the time to plan it). All of them seem to be getting on quite well and mily is still the working there(omg she's gonna be the perm temp there haha). Next, was really touched by what shaun and willy did that day; helping out with the bbq stuff (didn't really expect them to be helping me with it for almost the duration given their supposedly notoriously tuan attitude). And of course not to forget what my sec friends did; chen long, gk and elaine's handmade gift(it was kindda funny to see what they wrote on it and ya i will find one) for me(I guessed they muz have spent the past entire week thinking abt what to buy and make for me.) Really appreciate the effort that they put in and hope that our friendship can stay like this forever. Also like to say apologised to all of them coz i wasn't really able to talk to each of them for as long as i wanted to(hope u all dun mind).

Come to think of it that day was kindda awkward for me coz i'm not really used to being the centre of attraction(I was always the guy thats sitting quietly at 1 corner, preferring others to be in the limelight). Other than that, plus some other hiccups here and there, all was quite ok, except...... Except I feel that i'm still not ready to be 21 yet.

Well more question marks for me and till then,

May the Force be with You

Frustrated

2008-09-14T14:19:00.003+08:00

What was i doing all this while? i noe that i have disappointed those that cared and are concerned for me but why did i still do it? was it juz a moment of impulse or pure fun doesn't really matter anymore. what matters most is that the damage has been done. Sorry is not the word that u really wanna hear right now. What u wanna know is what am i gonna do abt it(to remain the status quo or let it be gone) and what am to do if we are gonna go back to what we used to be? With this i really have no ans to it (explanations isn't what u want for all trust has been lost at that moment). I'm a man who doesn't know how to express myself but juz want u to know that i still treasure our friendship.........'sorry'.....

Sick

2008-09-01T22:08:00.003+08:00

Oh gosh how time really flies. Its now alr week 5 of the school term and now is then my 1st entry after my school officially starts.(Ya this blog is gonna get rusty unless i do sth abt it quickly). I guess the transition back to school life after this few years still need some getting used to; there are so many things taught that i am still not sure of and damn it, the ppl from aero all seem so smart. Maybe i'm juz stressing myself too much; there should be a lot of ppl same as me that are juz feeling as lost as me right now(hope so). Too add on to it, i'm having AE1001 test this thur and i still have no clue watsoever the lecturer is talking.(guess i should buck up and pray for gd luck haha)

Went to the Nike human race yesterday and had a rough idea of how much my fitness have 'deprove' after my ORD. And thanks to that, i'm now having a fever, flu and typing now in between sneezes. I'm glad that at least that I finished the race despite having a fever half way through the event.

Still waiting for the reply from MJ(please let me be in although i know my chances of doing so) and till then

May the force be with you..........
(PS: need to get back to studies le haiz)

Time Table

2008-08-02T15:12:00.020+08:00

林宥嘉 - 眼色 MV

Juz listen to this and u will understand why he's the champion for the 1st season of 超級星光大道. Simply great

Had a look at my sucky time table again. Haiz wonder what am I gonna do when school starts next week........so many in between slots.

Enough of all this, below are some of the long overdue cam whoring photos that was taken during the outing with gk, chen long and guo rong during our outing for the 1st NDP preview show.

well chen long's inside(should be the 2nd guy from the right if I'm not wrong)

Well till then ciaos and
May the force be with u.......

Genesis; A new beginning

2008-07-31T22:33:00.003+08:00

Well went for the welcome talk yesterday. The talks were so boring that I practically either dozed off or looking around aimlessly all the time. So literally for the whole day, I shut off. Probably the only highlight was the goodie bag haha......

How time flies; JC, army and now Uni. Am really anticipating the start of it and yet at the same time afraid of the new things that I am going to embark on. Constantly thinking of many what ifs; can't cope with studies, unable to click with new people and so on...... I know it sounds oxymoron but thats how I'm feeling now; CONFUSED. Really hope that I can clear off all these negative thoughts and be more positive. Enough of all this.

Here are the set of things that I hoped that I will be able to achieve throughout my NTU life:

1) Not to be a nerd(well I admit I was)
2) Be more extroverted(I'm still trying to open up myself)
3) Joining MJ(right now no other CCAs seems more fun than this)
4) Make new friends(so that I have no lack of company in between lessons)

While the list carry on juz that I can't think of any at the moment alr but in short I wanna my uni life to be filled with fun and colours and till then

May the Force be with you........

CAC camp

2008-07-26T15:49:00.006+08:00

Well, juz gotten back on Friday from CAC camp and wahhhhhh, it was really fun. Gotta know lotsa people out there which I probably never will never if not for it; none of them that I met with are going to study aerospace engineering, except for one(OMG, is it really such a so god-forsaken course? All of them can't u juz come out now). Although I didn't really get to sleep much, I enjoyed it alot.

Didn't really do much things on the 1st day, juz met up with my OG grp(Ayden) at Boon Lay MRT and then we are gone to NTU, playing ice breaking games and after dinner went ard school playing games(NTU is freaking big la, dun noe how am I gonna get my way ard there when school starts). Frankly speaking, being the quiet type of guy that I always was, the 1st few days was a bit sian for me(didn't really attempt to interact with them) Although that was how its was, but as days goes by, I gotta know them better. So basically the 1st few days was spent on getting ard the school through games(though seriously I doubt after all this, I knew my way ard NTU any better).

Still remember there was a fright night on the 2nd day. Although it turned out more to be a funny experience then a scary one, kudos to the efforts put in by the programmers who have to do it consecutively for 5 hrs.(probably because I was only concerned with sleeping that I wasn't really thinking of anything else).

Then after that came the amazing race on the 3rd day whereby we came out of school with the ending point being the Ferris Wheel at Marina Square with so called roadblocks along the way. Come to think of it, it was more like a sightseeing trip for us instead of a race; we were literally strolling from point to point and turning into cam whores, taking pics everywhere we go.(well the photos are still not with me yet, will upload them once I received it. After that we spent the night at Sentosa and the next day was beach games although the unpredictable weather threatened to call it off. And of course our Mr AA got to show off what he's made up of......

The highlight of the next 2 days was the meeting up with our SP(Secret Pal); someone that was chosen randomly, so u have no idea who she was. That's what happened during the 4th night where we were both blindfolded and having to pass through stations along the way. Didn't really keep track of how long we talked(still blindfolded) coz there were delays at the stations but I guess it shd be more than few hrs(Wa didn't realise that I can actually sustain a conversation for so long). Of course in the end, we were literally shivering and filled with souvenirs from the game masters which is actually a cocktail of ice cream, mustard, egg, flour and some other things which I think its best not for me to know. The next day was to go ard rooms to identify who is our SP(ya on the way the guys were made to do stupid things b4 we got to know who our SPs are). After that we had dinner at Pariss b4 heading down to DXO.

Here's a photo that I took with my SP(coincidentally, she's my xue mei too)

Finally the last day came and although I was really shagged from the activities, it was really quite a pity that the day came so fast. Guess will really miss Ayden and hope that we can still keep in touch.(will upload our cam whoring photos once I received them)

School's starting soon, hope that I can survive the rigours of it and enjoy myself as much as I was in Ayden and till then;

May the Force be with you

End of working stint

2008-07-20T12:00:00.004+08:00

How time really flies; in the blinking of an eye, school is starting soon for me again. Still can clearly remember the days during NS when I was literally counting down to D day(ORD of course) followed by the nearly 8 mths of working stint(minus the 1 mth which I stoned at home) which ended off last friday at SIM. Anyway I basically did nothing again that day(or should I say the whole week haha)and it was spend on reading manga and tying up some loose ends at work and of course, I became 'heavy' again from the souvenirs which I took it upon myself to 'take'. On the whole, I feel that I have learned a lot throughout this period(probably because this was the 1st time I actually worked although I dun really see any my bank balance seems stagnated). Sure, there were some uneventful experiences that are best forgotten, but its through it that I have become wiser; the world is not what it seems to be(guess I was too naive). These are things which I can never know from reading any amount of books. To summarise everything, I still prefer my Citibank job out of the 3 I had(really gotta make a point to aside time to meet up with them again). Guess I will never forget abt these lessons of life that I had throughout this period.

Speaking of which, I'm now in the midst of packing up my stuff for the camp later so I'm kindda in a rush right now. Will update next time and till then,

May the Force be with You

NDP 08

2008-07-06T11:40:00.003+08:00

Well just went to watch this year's NDP preview yesterday night with Gk. Thanks to Chen long who managed to get 2 tickets for us. Frankly speaking, I wasn't really excited by the thought of going there even though it has been abt 10 yrs since I actually when directly to the stadium to watch the parade, albeit it being a preview show also the last time. That was the time when every pri 5 student were required to attend the preview show as part of national education(what I would call as the nation's effort to inculcate the 'correct' set of thinking to us). Guess u can say that I am not really a patriotic person after all. Dun get me wrong, I still love my country for how it has made me for what I am today, but its just that I prefer to watch every year's parade from the comfort of my home instead of having to squeeze with everybody to watch the same thing, minus the atmosphere of course. Anyway when I reach there I was really appalled by how much the stadium(the floating platform) have changed since the last time I was there; from just the flat platform it was previously, to the at least decent looking performing stage that it able to accommodate 27,000 people. Speaking of the show, its just .... and more .... On the whole, I really have no inclination what the various performance was about. Not to say the performers did not perform badly, they really work hard for it and its quite a feat considering they have to coordinate the shows consisting of 2,000 over performers, although there are still some glitches here and there. But the thing is that the whole was probably too artistic for me to understand(maybe I'm too LC haha....) and in the end I was just anticipating the fireworks was coming up next). But anyway the only thing to look forward to should be the performance by the RSAF black knights plus of course the fireworks, other than that, well u know what.

On the whole, its quite an experience for me to see the nation coming together by transforming the stadium into a sea of red.

Till then,

May the force be with you......

2008-07-01T20:30:00.008+08:00

Recently came across some songs which I find it to be quite nice and want to share it with all of u.

The 1st song 永不消失的彩虹, sung by genie zhuo is actually the soundtrack from the new Taiwanese idol drama 翻滾吧!蛋炒飯(Rolling Love) that is currently still airing in Taiwan now(Of course I'm watching it now). Fell in love with the song after listening for the 1st time which contains a little tinge of sadness. It is only recently then they released the OST for it. Too bad 恆星, another song from the drama sung by Fahrenheit(I think its actually one of the better songs by them) was not in it. But anyway juz enjoy this song.

The 2nd song that I'm gonna introduced is actually one which I discovered it a few days back. It's called 走火入魔 by 阿信(from Mayday) & 丁噹. Like the lyrics of this song(btw 阿信 was the one who composed it and gosh he's so gd) which is actually talking abt a girl who is so infatuated with this guy that she is going to 走火入魔 but doesn't dare to bare it out. Of course the MV is also nicely filmed. Enjoy

And till then,
May the force be with you

Spain vs Russia

2008-06-27T15:48:00.004+08:00

Am actually blogging right now in the midst of reading novels and data entry coz I really dun feel like doing any work now. Well, I am not sure whether its my nature to be so lazy or just that I'm a plain slacker but I think the reason is because I stayed out this morning to watch the Euro semi-final match between Spain and Russia.(Yah, thats why I'm feeling so grouchy now and not in the mood to do anything). Well not to say its a boring match(although I admit that the zzz monster was closing down on me towards the end of the match) but its just that the match was a bit 1-sided(as reflected by the 3-0 scoreline). Russia did not played as well as they did during the match with Holland. And of course Arshavin(the player to watch) was non-influential throughout the match(not sure whether was it that he had a bad game or just that the Spainish defence was too quick to shut him up) They were literally outplayed by Spain and its a delight to see how they play. Till then did I realise that Fabregas was that good(well to be honest, I did not really see how he played before); by the way he had a hand in assisting 2 of Spain's goal.

While next up, the finals. Its Germany vs Spain. Guess it is gotta be a match to look forward to and drats it had to happened on a weekday again.

Well on the other hand, faced with so many choices, I have at last decided on which orientation camp to go for. I have decided to go for the CAC camp. Hope that it turns out to be a good choice after all. Was actually thinking of going either this or the combined engineering camp but from what I gathered so far, not many of them are keen on going that and so this is how I arrive at the decision.

Oh no, I'm begining to feel sleepy again le, gotta do something else to keep me going till 5.30pm. Guess will update more next time and till then,

May the Force be with you.

2008-06-24T20:34:00.003+08:00

It has been abt 1 week plus seems I last posted a post. Well as usual I have not been doing anything much, just doing the routine things everyday and it has only been last week that I have gotten into Euro fever(I know it seems bit slow for me to only do so till now considering that I have already miss the group stages). Well basically, I have only watched 2 matches so far, the Germany vs Portugal match and the Holland vs Russia and what can I say, the results were not to my expectations; the teams that I supported lost. I would say its kindda of disappointing to see fanciful Portugal and Holland lost but to be on the neutral side, both matches were without a doubt, entertaining. At the very least it was worth the effort to wake up early although my mind clearly wasn't present when I went to work the next day. This week, there are the 2 semis to look forward to(shit its on a weekday and the next day its gonna be a torturous day for me), hopefully the rest of the matches turn to be as exciting as it ought to be although given that Spain seems to be the only entertaining side left ard in this competition.

Well also recently, I juz received the orientation package from NTU. So many camps to choose from, really wonder what am I going to do abt it. See how it goes and will update u all next time(need to also think of a way to end my work stint quickly for all that to happen in the 1st place and also its too boring). Till then,

May the Force grant u all ur wishes.

Another Day at Work

2008-06-10T14:01:00.003+08:00

While it has been quite some time since I last blogged. Basically throughout this time, I have been doing nothing special in particular, juz going through the mundane tasks everyday; going to work as usual(its becoming a bit tiring for me to travel to work everyday-its quite far and really have to salute my sis for having to travel there to study), driving lessons on weekends, then of course dancing classes on Mondays plus a tinge of outings here and there. And now, here I am, blogging in the midst of boring work(folding papers into envelopes this few days and still got a few more hundreds more to go) and falling asleep soon. Gosh, really can't wait for school to start man rather than now aimlessly doing things that seem to serve no purpose for me in life.

Well, gotta go back to work le, till next time then any may the force be with you.....zzzzzzz

2008-06-01T15:02:00.004+08:00

Its another Sunday for me being cooped up at home without going out coz nobody is asking me to(nahhh......... juz kidding). Dun feel like doing so coz of what happened this morning. Was actually supposed to have my dreadful driving lesson today. As always, barely making it in time to reach there when I saw my instructor's car drove pass our supposed meeting point. Thought he was making a U turn and so I waited but after a while he still wasn't back and thats when I started calling him. (In Chinese)" Hmmmmm Uncle, where are you huh? I have alr reached here." He replied," Do I have lesson with today?" and then said that he alr have something on today and cannot have lesson with me. That was when I started spewing WTF....(well at least in my mind). Well that really pissed me off, he was to have lesson with me as agreed upon(and he forgotten everything abt it) and made me really feel like an idiot traveling all the way there when I only slept at 4am yesterday. To top it off, he's actually an acquaintance of my dad, so I can really do nothing abt it and so in the end I juz make my way home feeling angry for the whole journey back.

Well forget abt it, dun really put driving as my priority now after this debacle. Shall talk abt why did I slept at 4am yesterday. I was actually out with gk, chen long and ying jie till that late. Poor chen long, heard from him that he will be confined in camp for the next 2 weekends and so suggested the outing(dun really the same thing happening to me when I was still serving nation, Guess I'm considered quite lucky). As usual after dinner at Shokudo(like the variety of food they offered at considerable affordable prices compared to what we usually eat), we have a long chat abt problems that facing each of us now. Really like this talks that we have where we can juz trash anything out and the others juz listen and offer solutions(well not all the times) to it as it really makes you think abt what you want in life. After that we went to watch Chronicles of Narnia and was actually quite disappointed by how it turn out considering that it still have a lot more sequels to it. I feel that the whole movie dragged a bit(it was 2 hrs 25 min long and there were too much talking), the plot was too predictable(not much twist here and there-maybe because the author was only 16 yrs old when he wrote it) and worse they make the white witch look more like a supporting role not worth mentioning considering that she was the main villain in their 1st series and appeared only abt 5-10min for the whole show. But after that, it makes me wanna read the book to find out how the whole thing will end and it was alr 3 plus in the morning when the show ended and after blah blah blah(as mentioned earlier).

Well thats abt it, gotta go see shows now, will update more next time and till then..............
May the force be with you.

Gundam 00

2008-05-25T22:21:00.006+08:00

Juz finished watching the 1st season of Gundam 00 and what can I say, it did live up to my expectation. In short, this story is basically abt this organisation, Celestial Being using force to start a war(which they call it armed intervention) against the 3 power blocs to force them to unite together and to eradicate all wars and bring abt lasting peace. Always like watching gundam because of the great fighting scenes, story plot and also how they portray a situation from many perspectives. Although I sorely miss the political atmosphere that was omnipresent in seed destiny, overall I'm still satisfied with it. Really looking forward for season 2(heard its gonna come out soon)

Have not been updating this blog for this few days as I have been busy with stuffs. Monday having dance lessons again(at last its back) at Danz people at Cuppage plaza(near Somerset MRT). The people there are damn gd la and till now my body is still aching from my 1st lesson. Too bad Raymond decided not to continue anymore and left only me, Yi Xiang and GK being the lousiest there I supposed. Tuesday having tuition lessons after my last day at work at OCBC(as usual the traveling journey sucks big time to go to that god damn wu loo place). And today I started my new job at SIM(surprisingly the recruitment agency can find the job and settle the necessary things for me in juz 1 day) although the traveling time is a bit far compared to my previous 2 working assignments, but at least the environment is not 2 bad there bah. The people there seems quite ok other than 1 minor incident that made me a but LL. Hope that I can really adapt to it quickly then at least my short stint there will be more enjoyable. (I'm suppose to work till end july, of course I'm not gonna work till then. Gd thing haven sign anything yet. Haha, shall see how it goes bah).

Well my eyes are beginning to feel heavy alr and gonna wake up early tml, shd post more abt my happenings next time and till then,

....................May the Force be with you

A pissed day

2008-05-23T22:41:00.004+08:00

Well juz wondering how I'm gonna start my topic today. In short, it's juz simply that I'm pissed.

Went to work as juz like any other morning and then seating at that corner waiting for work to be passed down(was basically reading newspaper and slacking ard) and as usual Ling Ling is alr bogged down by work. On the other hand, Yy was only juz starting to eat her breakfast at 9am(that's the time we were supposed to start work btw)and like me doing nothing. Thought it was suppose to be juz like any other day again when suddenly Angela(the one in charge of me now) threw a bombshell on me and told me to report for work after lunch time at their OCBC Tampines office. My 1st reaction was like WTF, how can they do this to me? I have alr been transferred from margin dept to SDP and now this. Till now even as I am writing, my anger has still not been appeased. So this is how they treat temps; needing them when need arises and deem it a surplus after that, just simply discarding me at some place even though I got a few more pathetic days left to my 1mth contract date (and not even sure whether I will be extended-well I guess not). Well come to think of it, I shouldn't have done things so quickly since things are going to turn out this way.

Actually that is not the only reason I'm unhappy with the news. I has taken me quite some time to be able to adapt to my working environment(considering the fact that I'm not really gd at communicating with others and Charles left after abt 2 weeks) and this has to happen juz as I was able to acclimatise myself to it and it takes a great deal of effort to be able to do it in the 1st place. I can't simply imagine myself having to start adapting myself at a new environment all over again. I mean I'm not against being thrust to an unfamiliar environment as this is part and parcel of life(we all have to move on to the different paths that have been carved for us) but all this change juz came too abrupt and sudden for me. So in the end, I juz took my own sweet time there and after reaching did not really talk to anyone(except maybe Charles), juz putting on that damn tu lan face of mine and started immersing myself in my work(juz simply some time consuming brainless data checking which will be send to the warehouse after that; like so what if it is wrong when they are going to condemn the whole damn thing). Well didn't talk to the in charge there whether my services would be extended but I dun really care abt it now and juz feel that its a pity that I could not work at Raffles place longer; I think I could have become gd friends with Yy and ling ling. Hope that we can still keep in contact and will miss the days when we tuang together.

Also juz receive an email that my CN Yang scholarship application got rejected. Oh well, so be it . What's another bad news for me now(though I kindda expected it). Makes me wonder how come the world is so hmmmmmmm..... dark(I'm beginning to dislike it more and more now). Guess I'm going to have a hard time to sleep tonight and till then,

Wish them all the best and god bless.

The Interview

2008-05-15T21:26:00.003+08:00

Well went to the CN Yang Scholarship interview just a few days back and expectedly I think I flunked it like nobody business la. I really wasn't even thinking of getting it in the 1st place but anyway I was still pissed with myself with how the whole thing turn out. Fully understanding myself that I'm not in the same league as those HC and RJ students(it was alr a miracle that I got shortlisted for it), I was only going there just to experience how tough the interview will be like.

Was a bit shocked when I reached there(everybody was wearing formal attire and I was the only one in T shirt and jeans. hghhhhhh heck at least it's way better than berms and slippers). And then when I went in, I saw Ho Fai's(my Bmt mate) dad, Prof Leong there. Sian, he was the chief interviewer of it and I was thinking how small can this world be. His 1st question was basically asking whether after I ORDed, did I read up on the A level stuff. The answer is of course no and b4 I have any chance to explain myself, he started to blah blah abt how potential candidates need to have a very strong foundation in math and science and so on to be able to be qualified for it. After that they asked 2 O lvl qn which really owned me and till now, I am still frustrated with myself for not being able to ans both of it. The 1st qn was basically asking how airplanes can take flight and then the 2nd qn was to find out the angle of a triangle in a semi-circle and explain why. After that, in my mind I was thinking I'm screwed and the whole thing took abt 20 min. I'm just hoping now that I will not be the most stupid aerospace engineering student when school starts and then I think its really high time for me to start revising my A lvl stuffs liao.

Too end it off, like to intro to ur a song by 李玖哲 and 李冰冰, 预感 from the movie Forbidden kingdom. Found it when I was searching the net for songs actually. Like the voice of 李玖哲 in this song. Hope U all enjoy and till then.......

May the Force be with you.......

2008-05-10T14:16:00.004+08:00

Have u ever been in a situation where u are just simply frustrated of yourself for not being able to do sth? I'm not talking abt angry being unable to do things that are not ordinary; like having powers the same as the people from the TV series Heroes. I am alr old enough to differentiate between what is reality and fantasy(although sometimes I still wish I'm a Jedi). Today I have a really bad day in driving(I think I really suck at it). The whole lesson I was literally learning how to move from rest at a upslope position(which actually involves stepping on accelerator using ur right leg, left leg to release the clutch to a certain level and then hands to move the handbrake). I mean this is the dun noe how many lessons that I have been through and I still can't get it right and worse, the stupid car die on me once again and ended up kpkpkpkpkp.......by the driving instructor. Wasn't really bothered by that though, just that I was really pissed with myself for not being able to do such a simple task. Come to think of it though, there are also many instances where I feel the same way too like why am I not as smart as some other people. Haiz, why dun god make me smarter a bit, if not, then I may not feel so retarded now la.

Well enough of this rhetorical self-blaming, here are some photos that I received from Jannelle a few days back(sure took a long time to reach me but at least I'm still not forgotten). Really the Quan Jia Fu of my dept back in Citibank(brings back memories......)

On a side note, went all with Elaine and my sec school friends yesterday and then just realised that she is actually flying off to Canada today for a 2 month exchange program. Knew that she's going to fly off soon by didn't expect it to be that fast. Haiz, guess for the time being, my sec sch clique as just gotten smaller again and will miss her but really hope that she enjoyed her stint there(getting a bit jealous now). Till then, may the force be with her.

2008-05-08T20:25:00.006+08:00

Have actually been wondering this question for the past few days. Well it came upon when I was on the train on my way to work. When I stepped into the as usual crowded train, I was observing the people on it and that almost everyone in office wear was displaying that very shagged look and their eyes were literally lifeless as if their soul were gone.

What I'm trying to say is that when I look at them, this niggling question suddenly came to my mind,"What's my purpose in life?" Again, I look at them, trying to figure out the rationale behind the looks on their faces. Does it implies that they are actually dreading to go to work? If so, then why did they choose their present job in the 1st place?( I mean u should be choosing a job that u have a passion in, like ur dream job or sth close to it since u are going to spend the next major part of ur life on it after ur studies, and that of course it muz be somehow related to what u really wannna do in life). Well speaking of which, was talking with Charles the other day and he was mentioning to me how common it is to see people literally clocking OTs for the rest of their lives and I'm talking abt for the next 20-30 years. Wow, its like they really like this job to wanna spend so much time on it? I doubt so, its more like that they are trying to earn that extra money. Back to it, looking at those facial lines that seem to be ravaged by the onslaught of time, I realise that the reality of life have set in for them. Probably they really did have dreams, but that was before, bread and butter issues and the need to support their family now makes dreams to remain that way. Will I be like them 10 years down the road, with soulless eyes looking forward to the start of day at work? I really hope not and that I will be able to do sth that I wanna do. For more than once, I have ask myself what is the thing that I want? Well, to start off in the short term, I'm looking forward to Uni life and hopefully at last to be able to fall in love and then maybe to become a research defence engineer(my ideal job) but what about after that or is there anything else I really want? I'm at a loss now. Like to share with u all a simple test that Jimmy share with me when I was undergoing training at Citibank that can help u find out what u really want. Take a piece of paper and fold into half. Use ur right hand, write down what u hope to achieve in life on the right side. After that repeat the steps, but this time round using ur left hand instead and write on the left hand side. U will actually be surprised that what u written on the left hand side of the paper differs from the right hand side and that the things that u have written on the left hand side are what u really want deep down inside u.

Well, it works for me though. Although I had done it quite a long time ago and that I pretty forgotten what I have written, I still remember that I written the word 'happy' on the left hand side. Till now, I'm still surprised by why I wrote that down. Probably, I'm just an ordinary guy. Haiz, think I will just take that. U may try this too and u may just be surprised that what u really want in life may actually be very mundane. Gotta go sleep alr. Till then, May the Force guide u to the path that u wanna be in and not be lost in the harsh truth of reality. Nitez....

2008-05-04T15:26:00.002+08:00

Dun really noe what's going on with me that I only have the mood to blog now. Guess its just an excuse that I am too lazy to do so bah. On friday, met up with Yi Xiang, Janelle, Emily and Joel for lunch. Come to think of it, it has been ard a mth since I last saw them(excluding Yi Xiang though). Well we basically chatted about how's life going on for each of us. Seems that life at Citi still the same, except that Cheryl just quitted a few days back(not unexpected though; still remember the days when she will complain to me abt so and so who refuses to make payt and screaming all the while). For the 3 of them left, as usual they are still contemplating abt quitting. After that, we all went back to office and it was kindda funny to see the shock faces of the perms when they saw me there, especially Angela and Maen who literally jump up of their seats. Talk some crap with them and before I knew it ard 15 min have passed when Yi Xiang was like wanting to go alr. Too bad we both were supposed to rush down to NTU for some medical checkup and therefore cannot continue the conversation with them and I did not even have a chance to talk to every of them. Oh my god, I'm missing the days there again, gotta stop thinking abt it or I will be wondering to myself again why did quit in the 1st place. We then travel by train and bus to NTU, it was freaking far loh, can't really imagine how much time I will spent next time traveling there. As we were unsure of where is the medical centre, we alighted off a few bus stops then we were supposed to and ending up needing to walking up and down the various slopes(can't they just level the ground?) under the merciless afternoon sun. Till now then I realise that NTU is like a god damn freaking big place la(gotta really explore that place next time) and also the ppl that we approach for directions weren't really helpful at all and that there are a lotta china ppl there. It was like until 4pm(we basically spent ard 40 min walking) did we then reach there and we were like 1 of the last few to register. Thankfully we were still able to do so or else I'm gonna kpkpkpkp..............can't imagine having to make another trip down there again for the checkup and really have to do some homework next time whenever I am going to some place that I haven been to b4.

Well, this pretty sums up what happened to me that day and till then,
May the Force Be with you

My New Job

2008-04-30T23:12:00.009+08:00

So sorry for not updating this blog for as frequently as I wanted to as I have been busy this few days and that it seem to take a long time whenever I wanted to write a post. I guess I'm still not used to it bah.

Speaking of which, I recently started a new job at OCBC working under this Securities dept. At first I thought it should be kind of an enriching experience for me to be there as it is actually dealing with shares trading even though it is only a 1 month assignment. Come to think of it now, it was just wishful thinking on my part. On the 1st day, I went to the HR dept to report for work and was already made to wait for 20 min before the HR personnel could attend to me( they were also attending to a bunch of interns at the same time which I went in too initially, realising it only after all of them made some intro about themselves. Sianz its so embarrassing la and why is it happening to me on my starting day?) and direct me to the dept which I will working at. After that, I went there and waited until I was joined by Charles(another temp), followed by another 2 hr wait while waiting for the PC to be set up. Not that I was complaining being paid for doing nothing but its just that we run out of topics to talk about(I really tried my best to be proactive). In the end, I was just stoning my life away while sporadically trying to strike a conversation. Was actually quite 'gan dong' when I later received an sms from Yi Xiang that he wanted to lunch with me; thinking that I have no lunch buddy on my 1st day. Since then, both of us were doing boring data entry; going through piles of statements checking for discrepancies. Not your idea kind of job though, when we are the only temps around(not sure about other depts though) and I haven really click with the perms yet; maybe coz of generation gap bah.

Come to think of it, Citibank is actually a better place to be in, discounting the jobscope though. Not that I'm regretting my decision to quit(am I?) but I think Man are just like that, never seem to be satisfied and keep asking for more and when things go wrong, you start to question yourself why did you make this decision. I, for 1, dun deny that I think this way too; I mean who doesn't wish for everything in life to be good. I guess this is part and parcel of life(you have to accept that sometimes things are never meant to go your way) and I still have a long way to go to learn how to really give and take with an open heart.

A hr have juz passed away since is I started this entry. To end it off, below are some photos which I took with Gk, Yi Xiang and Raymond last Sun at Chijmes. Kindda regret going there though, not really what I expected it to be..........

Well, looking on the bright side, having this job is at least way better than being surrounded by 4 walls with nothing to do. Hopefully for the next 1 mth, things there will go better and make my stint more enjoyable. Till then................May the Force guide me and be with me(you too of course).

Mein Kempf

2008-04-27T11:03:00.009+08:00

Dun be surprised by the title of it for those who knows what it means; it has nothing to do with Hitler and are wondering how come I chose it as a way to start off my post. But I feel that this is the best phrase to aptly describe my feelings for the past 1 mth.

Firstly like to apologise for not updating this blog for so long coz I simply don't really have the mood for it reason being for these past weeks I have been doing nothing but slacking around at home after quitting my job at Citibank. Ideally, I have wanted to rest for 1 or 2 weeks before starting on a new job. Thats how all my struggles started; from traveling to and fro for job interviews to painful waiting for the long overdue replies which of course never came. Plus in the process, being cheated of a job offer which turns out to be totally different from the jobscope that I was told of (not Shaun's fault though-that company was out to scam us in the 1st place). Everyday when I woke up, I was always asking myself what I am gonna do today? During this time, I thought of a lot of things and came to a few conclusions about myself:

1) I am not a Zai Nan. I cannot imagine staying at home for a stretch of a few weeks for another time(I am going crazy just thinking about it again)
2) I am too trusting to people; thanks to all those recruitment consultants who contribute to it in 1 way or another.

Till now, U all may be wondering, if thats the case then why I quit my previous job in the 1st place without securing a job. Well I admit its partly my fault(those who have worked there before should understand my decision) but at that time I really feel that its just time for me to move on.

Well enough of all those emo thoughts, here are some of the pictures that I took with my colleagues on my last day at Citi ( guess I will miss them and hope that we can meet up for some chit chat next time)

And to end things off in a lighter mode, I will be starting a new job tomorrow and wish me best of lucks. Till then..........

God bless and May the Force be with you

My 1st Entry

2008-04-08T17:45:00.007+08:00

This is actually my 1st post to this blog. Thnx Willy for helping me to setting out this blog, which started off when I mentioned to him that i was interested in doing so and for the 'advertisement' that he made on his blog. I really 'appreciate' his help in making this blog. Anyway as I am new to blogging, I may need to take some time to further refine it since it has alr been vilified by U-Noe-Who. Hope that I can get the hang of it real soon.

Today was really a bad day for me. It started off with me going with Willy for an interview at Success Agency at Peace Centre(the place damn wu loo la). Things begin to turn bad when I reach OCBC Centre for the next interview where I simply could not find my way around the building. When I finally reach there and had my interview, the interviewer kept hinting me to commit for a few months but then of course i don't want to commit so early and to try out for some time first. After that, I and Willy went to AMK Hub to loiter about and have lunch together. Probably because I have in mind that I will not get the job, I was feeling very emo about it. Of course don't know for what reason, Willy was feeling emo too(like huh? he is actually feeling sad coz after tuanging so much, he is starting work tomorrow; what a paradox). Really have to admire him for listening to my constant grumbling and yet at the same time can still feel emo about his own problem. In the end we went back home. Worse have yet to happen, when i was at home using my sis's laptop to carry on my job search journey again, it suddenly crashed. I was like WTF...... my sis gonna strangle me when she comes back.

Haiz, what a day it has been for me and after that, having calm down and thought about it, me failing the interview wasn't such a bad thing after all coz my jobscope was actually to be an errand boy(like cannot trust job agency nowadays when you wanna look for a proper admin job). Anyway, Shaun got me a temp job starting work tml. Although it involves calling people again;of course not the type where u call people for money(I had enough of it)and that it's only till end april, but i just accepted it coz i don't wanna stay at home and rot(this is the 7th day i have been officially declared jobless). Well, see how it goes, hope that all turns well and till then,

May the Force be with you

2008-04-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, my first post i ever wrote on this blog.

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Shall write a longer post in time to come.