Welcome to my 1st blog. I've never been into this blogging thingy before, which i decided to embark on out of fun. And this is how I am gonna kickstart it.

In case you're wondering how come i chose Jedi; any member of the knightly order in Star Wars, which was trained to defend justice and peace in the universe(www.dictionary.com), its juz simply because i have been an avid fan of it since young and started off when i saw the 1st Star Wars movie(dun noe how long ago it was).



...don't worry! Other than sometimes fantasizing about becoming a Jedi, I'm very normal otherwise. (just abit too normal)

Tan Fei Fan
23-09-1987

North View Primary

Orchid Park Secondary

Yishun Junior College

Singapore Armed Forces

Citibank CCMU

OCBC SBL-SDP

SIM HE6

NTU Aerospace

while time really flies man. it has since been more than 1 more month since i last updated my blog. Guess i'm just too lazy to do anything about it bah haha. Just finished my exams a few days ago and ya my first semester is officially over. Hope that i can do well man although i seem to think i had screwed up for all of my tests. gotta admit that sometimes my mind just wasn't in that mugging mode when i was studying during that time and just wished that my prayers come through. After that hectic first semester then is now followed my a month's break. Still haven really thought of how i'm gonna spend my time; to be a free-loader at slack at home?(thats boring), get some temp job(a bit lazy and fingers crossed) or start dancing again? Speaking of which, i went to dance fuzion's lesson to see how it was like a day after my last dreaded paper-discovery course(they should seriously consider changing the name of the module and not to mislead ppl that this is a easy module to take) It was not too bad but just that i can't seem to keep up with some of the steps. Haiz think my bones are becoming stiff liao haha. Guess in my heart, i really like to dance bah. Still thinking in addition to this, whether i'm going to learn hip hop from outside.....

Well till more thinking and May the force be with you:)

...the dark lord came, and left

Time really flies and now I am 21. Come to think of it, I'm officially an adult and its actually quite scary when i think of it; with more responsibilities, having to think in a more adult way(hghhhhhh kinda hate it) and of course older now.

Had a pre 21st birthday celebration a few days back. Well i was kindda touched by what all of them did; meeting up with Citibank temps at last(it was only the 1st time we had an outing since i quited abt 5-6 months back - like god damn long la and i suspect tjat no one really had the time to plan it). All of them seem to be getting on quite well and mily is still the working there(omg she's gonna be the perm temp there haha). Next, was really touched by what shaun and willy did that day; helping out with the bbq stuff (didn't really expect them to be helping me with it for almost the duration given their supposedly notoriously tuan attitude). And of course not to forget what my sec friends did; chen long, gk and elaine's handmade gift(it was kindda funny to see what they wrote on it and ya i will find one) for me(I guessed they muz have spent the past entire week thinking abt what to buy and make for me.) Really appreciate the effort that they put in and hope that our friendship can stay like this forever. Also like to say apologised to all of them coz i wasn't really able to talk to each of them for as long as i wanted to(hope u all dun mind).

Come to think of it that day was kindda awkward for me coz i'm not really used to being the centre of attraction(I was always the guy thats sitting quietly at 1 corner, preferring others to be in the limelight). Other than that, plus some other hiccups here and there, all was quite ok, except...... Except I feel that i'm still not ready to be 21 yet.

Well more question marks for me and till then,

May the Force be with You

...the dark lord came, and left

What was i doing all this while? i noe that i have disappointed those that cared and are concerned for me but why did i still do it? was it juz a moment of impulse or pure fun doesn't really matter anymore. what matters most is that the damage has been done. Sorry is not the word that u really wanna hear right now. What u wanna know is what am i gonna do abt it(to remain the status quo or let it be gone) and what am to do if we are gonna go back to what we used to be? With this i really have no ans to it (explanations isn't what u want for all trust has been lost at that moment). I'm a man who doesn't know how to express myself but juz want u to know that i still treasure our friendship.........'sorry'.....

...the dark lord came, and left

Oh gosh how time really flies. Its now alr week 5 of the school term and now is then my 1st entry after my school officially starts.(Ya this blog is gonna get rusty unless i do sth abt it quickly). I guess the transition back to school life after this few years still need some getting used to; there are so many things taught that i am still not sure of and damn it, the ppl from aero all seem so smart. Maybe i'm juz stressing myself too much; there should be a lot of ppl same as me that are juz feeling as lost as me right now(hope so). Too add on to it, i'm having AE1001 test this thur and i still have no clue watsoever the lecturer is talking.(guess i should buck up and pray for gd luck haha)

Went to the Nike human race yesterday and had a rough idea of how much my fitness have 'deprove' after my ORD. And thanks to that, i'm now having a fever, flu and typing now in between sneezes. I'm glad that at least that I finished the race despite having a fever half way through the event.

Still waiting for the reply from MJ(please let me be in although i know my chances of doing so) and till then

May the force be with you..........
(PS: need to get back to studies le haiz)

...the dark lord came, and left

林宥嘉 - 眼色 MV



Juz listen to this and u will understand why he's the champion for the 1st season of 超級星光大道. Simply great

Had a look at my sucky time table again. Haiz wonder what am I gonna do when school starts next week........so many in between slots.

Enough of all this, below are some of the long overdue cam whoring photos that was taken during the outing with gk, chen long and guo rong during our outing for the 1st NDP preview show.



well chen long's inside(should be the 2nd guy from the right if I'm not wrong)









Well till then ciaos and
May the force be with u.......

...the dark lord came, and left

Well went for the welcome talk yesterday. The talks were so boring that I practically either dozed off or looking around aimlessly all the time. So literally for the whole day, I shut off. Probably the only highlight was the goodie bag haha......

How time flies; JC, army and now Uni. Am really anticipating the start of it and yet at the same time afraid of the new things that I am going to embark on. Constantly thinking of many what ifs; can't cope with studies, unable to click with new people and so on...... I know it sounds oxymoron but thats how I'm feeling now; CONFUSED. Really hope that I can clear off all these negative thoughts and be more positive. Enough of all this.

Here are the set of things that I hoped that I will be able to achieve throughout my NTU life:

1) Not to be a nerd(well I admit I was)
2) Be more extroverted(I'm still trying to open up myself)
3) Joining MJ(right now no other CCAs seems more fun than this)
4) Make new friends(so that I have no lack of company in between lessons)

While the list carry on juz that I can't think of any at the moment alr but in short I wanna my uni life to be filled with fun and colours and till then

May the Force be with you........

...the dark lord came, and left

Well, juz gotten back on Friday from CAC camp and wahhhhhh, it was really fun. Gotta know lotsa people out there which I probably never will never if not for it; none of them that I met with are going to study aerospace engineering, except for one(OMG, is it really such a so god-forsaken course? All of them can't u juz come out now). Although I didn't really get to sleep much, I enjoyed it alot.

Didn't really do much things on the 1st day, juz met up with my OG grp(Ayden) at Boon Lay MRT and then we are gone to NTU, playing ice breaking games and after dinner went ard school playing games(NTU is freaking big la, dun noe how am I gonna get my way ard there when school starts). Frankly speaking, being the quiet type of guy that I always was, the 1st few days was a bit sian for me(didn't really attempt to interact with them) Although that was how its was, but as days goes by, I gotta know them better. So basically the 1st few days was spent on getting ard the school through games(though seriously I doubt after all this, I knew my way ard NTU any better).

Still remember there was a fright night on the 2nd day. Although it turned out more to be a funny experience then a scary one, kudos to the efforts put in by the programmers who have to do it consecutively for 5 hrs.(probably because I was only concerned with sleeping that I wasn't really thinking of anything else).

Then after that came the amazing race on the 3rd day whereby we came out of school with the ending point being the Ferris Wheel at Marina Square with so called roadblocks along the way. Come to think of it, it was more like a sightseeing trip for us instead of a race; we were literally strolling from point to point and turning into cam whores, taking pics everywhere we go.(well the photos are still not with me yet, will upload them once I received it. After that we spent the night at Sentosa and the next day was beach games although the unpredictable weather threatened to call it off. And of course our Mr AA got to show off what he's made up of......

The highlight of the next 2 days was the meeting up with our SP(Secret Pal); someone that was chosen randomly, so u have no idea who she was. That's what happened during the 4th night where we were both blindfolded and having to pass through stations along the way. Didn't really keep track of how long we talked(still blindfolded) coz there were delays at the stations but I guess it shd be more than few hrs(Wa didn't realise that I can actually sustain a conversation for so long). Of course in the end, we were literally shivering and filled with souvenirs from the game masters which is actually a cocktail of ice cream, mustard, egg, flour and some other things which I think its best not for me to know. The next day was to go ard rooms to identify who is our SP(ya on the way the guys were made to do stupid things b4 we got to know who our SPs are). After that we had dinner at Pariss b4 heading down to DXO.


Here's a photo that I took with my SP(coincidentally, she's my xue mei too)


Finally the last day came and although I was really shagged from the activities, it was really quite a pity that the day came so fast. Guess will really miss Ayden and hope that we can still keep in touch.(will upload our cam whoring photos once I received them)

School's starting soon, hope that I can survive the rigours of it and enjoy myself as much as I was in Ayden and till then;

May the Force be with you

...the dark lord came, and left

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